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Sunday, June 25, 2017

Monday is Surgery Day

Bill will be having a lumbar laminectomy (L2 thru S1)& possible discectomy (one disc may be herniated)  at 9:30 AM.

I'll let you know how it goes.  Thanks for your prayers.

Deb

P.S.  What diet?  :{

Monday, June 5, 2017

NOT GOOD

We just got back from Bill's appointment to discuss back surgery.  (He has spinal stenosis, 4 bulging discs & ligament hy[ertrophy)  We expected to hear about minimally invasive surgery.

But, no.

The stenosis is severe, pinching the spinal cord in one spot & crowding it through the entire lumbar spine.  The MD says the surgery would involve a 6 inch incision through which he would remove*(see update below) 3 of his 5 lumbar vertebrae, partially remove  one other, trim the s1 vertebrae, remove  parts of the damaged ligaments, & something else.  (The voice in my head shouting "Wait! What?"  blocked out the third thing.

The MD listed risks, but said that more than 90% of this type of surgery for this problem are very successful and restore full functioning.  He said that Bill would be in the hospital for 2 or 3 nights, barring complication, and then be restricted in activity for one month. 

He will not be permitted to lift more than 5 pounds for the first thirty days, or  do any strenuous physical activity like mowing grass, etc.  He is to take walk as much as he can during those 30 days, however..  After the first month, Bill will go to PT for stretching & core strengthening exercises.  What happens after that second month was not explained.  I suppose it depends on how Bill's healing up.

Bill fixated on not being able to lift more than 5 pounds or do anything physical except walk for an entire month.  He's always been a very physical guy, although he's been very limited this past year so doing nothing won't be as much of a change as he thinks.  When he does work around the house, he suffers for days. 

 I fixated on the removing vertebrae* part.  I mean, I suppose it's possible that the MD meant that he was only removing the lamina (the back of the vertebrae that covers the spinal cord), but that's not what he said.  He said he needed to remove two vertebrae.    The MD explained the need for that procedure, but I'm not entirely sure what he said except for my comment above.  Something about over large vertebrae, nerve root impingement, screws and wires...  I don't know.

I'm just stricken about this. It sounds so, so risky.   I asked Bill if he wanted to see someone else for a second opinion; he does not.  He says God does the healing and he's tired of fooling with this.  He's ready to "get it done."  I'm ready to throw up.

We will be getting a phone call tomorrow re: the surgery date, and I'll ask about the exact intent of the surgeon..

And that's the weigh it goes,

Deb

UPDATE: I just spoke with the MD's office assistant.  The plan is for a laminectomy, not total vertebrae removal.  If an upcoming xray* shows spine instability, a fusion would be required that may involve vertebrae removal and a cage.  Details will be known after this special xray is completed.  Whew!  

Xray results in--spine appears to be stable.  MD plans on laminectomy.
Surgery date is tentatively scheduled for June 26.

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Prayer Request

I have a prayer request.  The bottom line is this:  My husband has an appointment with a neurosurgeon on Monday to discuss back surgery.  :o

Bill has been having significant back trouble--ever since he fell out of the bed of his pick-up truck bed... while backing his John Deere riding mower down two planks.  yeah.

His back had been bothering him some  before that, but after his plunge to earth--his shoulder hitting the pavement while his leg was pinned under the mower--it's been disabling.  He's had to use a cane to walk and struggles to do any physical activity, among other symptoms.  Until this accident, he had been very active.

At any rate, he got his MRI results last week.  He has significant spinal stenosis and several--several--bulging discs and ligament hypertrophy throughout his lumbar spine.  There is also some misalignment of the spine, and the MRI even shows a cyst there somewhere.  A cyst?  Really? Yep.

 Prior to the MRI, he had gone to a chiropractor thinking he'd just thrown his back out.  The treatments gave him some relief, but it only lasted a day.  (The MRI explains that.) and the insurance required that Bill go to physical therapy for six weeks before they'd authorize the MRI.  (I want to sue them for torture!).  The PT did not help.  At all.  Not a surprise.

So.  All things considered, surgery is his only option.  Back surgery scares me. Ah-lot.  I have, of course, been praying for a miraculous healing.  And it could still happen.  But, if God chooses to work through the MDs, then so be it.

Please pray.  Thanks,

Deb

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

This post is Karen's fault.

I read Karen's latest post which included a discussion on percentages of macros...and graphs from My Fitness Pal.  It got me to thinking about those macros--not that I don't regularly think about macros, I do--and wondering if my actual eating matched up with my set goals as far as percentages of what I am eating goes.

Let me explain.  MFP sets up macro goals per percentage of calories consumed. (1200 in my case).  Those percentages give me actual numbers in grams.  From experience, I know that I need to pay attention to the grams.  For instance, I'm okay as far as my glucose readings go if I stay below  60 grams of carbohydrate a day  (This keeps my insulin doses far below MD recommendation--6 units before meals as opposed to 14, for instance. And, yes, lower carb would be even less insulin, I think). 

I also know from experience that my body is exceptionally skilled at turning protein into glucose ( Yes.  Of course it would be.), so I have to keep my protein down under 90 grams a day-- more than that sends my glucose soaring.  Additionally, per my DNA recommendations & my body's bathroom visits, I need to go easy on fat.   (Although, since I had my gallbladder out at age 20, that advice may have come too late.)  So, fat bombs aren't on my list of things to pop into my mouth.

 All of those considerations make for a tight parameter and a need to jiggle percentages to get the numbers to match.  Here's what I came up with:  Percentages of 1200 calories is: Carb15%, (45 gr)Protein 25% (75 grams) & Fat 60%. (80 grams)    I, of course, have no real idea whether or not those numbers/ratios are good for me.  time will tell.

And here's where Karen's post came in.

I've been logging in my food for a few months now.  Sometimes I go under calories, sometimes over.  (Lots of times over.) The thing is, although MFP sets gram targets per percentage, the daily tally of food eaten just lists the targets & breakdown of actual food eaten by calorie & gram numbers' no percentages are listed.  So, curious about my actual real-life percentages,  I pulled up charts for each macro and looked at only the days for which I was 1400 calories or under. And guess what I found when I figured the percentages.

Almost every day, even when my calories were on target, my carb percentages were WAY over 15% of my daily intake.  Now doesn't that just figure?

Whether my calories were at 1200 or way below 1200,  I often shorted my protein and fat to get to that desired calorie range which , of course, changed the percentage ratio.   Without realizing it, I'd been paying  close attention to the calories and generally choosing  low carb, but paying almost no attention to the actual gram numbers across the board.  One day, I only had 800 calories, but with 50 grams of carb, the carbohydrate percentage was 25%.  sighhhh.

And that may  explains why I sometimes have higher glucose levels when I test than I expected to have.  I thought I was becoming brittle (I mean, I've been diabetic for over 40 years, and it happens.) But it may be the percentage issue.  My lack of protein and fat may be adding extra oomph to those pesky carbs.

Or not.  I'm thinking on it.  :}  I really have almost no idea what I'm talking abut.  I  was surprised, tho, to see just how large a percentage of my total food intake is still being used up by carbohydrates.  That sneaky carb addiction dies hard, doesnt it? 

I need to talk to God about it; He knows all about this stuff.

And that's the weigh it goes,

Deb

P.S.  Hmmmm.  Upon rereading this to edit, it feels way too tedious.  If I continue to try to edit, I'll just delete, so--sorry about the typos and congrats to anyone who actually read to this point.  :}





Saturday, May 20, 2017

If Everything Falls Away

Sometimes dark places yield the most light, and I've been sitting in shadows for a little while now.  I can't explain it exactly for there's no one thing that's prompting that "my soul is downcast within me" feeling.  I just have this odd sense of loss.

But that isn't the point of this post, it's just the backdrop.

Last week, I started reading a book that is about accepting yourself as God made you instead  of seeking approval from others or, to paraphrase the title,  being free to be who you already are.  The author rather enjoys the sound of her own voice and tends toward the dramatic in her writing style, but amidst my eye rolls, I can recognize a certain charm and truth in her words. 

A few chapters in, she was writing enthusiastically  about her newfound freedom, but as I read, the thought crossed my mind that she was not yet free--she was fooling herself.  A chapter or two later, she expressed the same conclusion.  :} I stopped reading at that point and began talking to God.  About freedom.  About my currently sorrowful soul.  About this feeling of loss, the roots of which I am unaware.

And a line from an old Janis Joplin  song crossed my mind.   "Freedom's just another word for nothin' left to lose."  I let the song play through my mind and picked the book back up.  The author was talking about how she realized that she was still striving,, still seeking public  love as she went from speaking engagement to speaking engagement--telling women how to be free, still wanting to "count" to someone.  She wrote that she felt God tell her that she counted to Him--and asked her if Het was enough.   The author realized that for her, at that moment, it was not.

I put the book back in my lap and listened to Janis sing in my memory again.

And something I heard a long time ago crossed my mind:  True freedom comes when God is enough, when He alone is all you need.

Is God enough for me?  If all I know and have falls away,  and I am left  with God alone--would I still stand?  Would joy still be found in my heart? Would God, just God and nothing or no one else,  be enough for me?

When the answer is "Yes,"  then I am free.

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

By His Stripes I Am Healed

 I have not taken medication or had a hallucination since Good Friday.  By His stripes, I am healed; and I am grateful.  thank you to all of those who prayed. 

The only residual effect I'm having from the stroke, at least as far as I can tell, is that I'm having some trouble telling right from left.  I know.  Isn't that weird?  It may resolve, but if not, it's a minimal problem compared to what could have been.

Again, thank you to those who prayed for me.

And that's the weigh it goes,

Deb

Sunday, April 16, 2017

The Resurrected King is Resurrecting Me



 
"Resurrecting"
The head that once was crowned with thorns
Is crowned with glory now
The Savior knelt to wash our feet
Now at His feet we bow

The One who wore our sin and shame
Now robed in majesty
The radiance of perfect love
Now shines for all to see

Your Name
Your Name
Is victory
All praise
Will rise
To Christ our King
[x2]

The fear that held us now gives way
To Him who is our peace
His final breath upon the cross
Is now alive in me

Your Name
Your Name
Is victory
All praise
Will rise
To Christ our King
[x2]

By Your Spirit I will rise
From the ashes of defeat
The resurrected King
Is resurrecting me
In Your Name I come alive
To declare Your victory
The resurrected King
Is resurrecting me
[x3]

The tomb where soldiers watched in vain
Was borrowed for three days
His body there would not remain
Our God has robbed the grave
Our God has robbed the grave

Your Name
Your Name
Is victory
All praise
Will rise
To Christ our King
[x2]

By Your Spirit I will rise
From the ashes of defeat
The resurrected Kking
Is resurrecting me
In your Name I come alive
To declare Your victory
The resurrected King
Is resurrecting me
The resurrected King
Is resurrecting me