At any rate, in the process I was able to get my pictures back from their black hole confinement. So, here's what my computer desktop looks like now:
Bill (the Hubs) & Billy on a Smoky Mtn Trail in 2013
And here's a closer-up of my two guys
I am struck by how much younger we were just 4 years ago. I know that sounds amusing, but I say it with a tinge of wistfulness. We didn't realize how fast physical decline happens once you're 60 years old. Somehow, we went from middle age to old age in that short span of time. (Well. this has taken a depressing turn, hasn't it?!)
While at the hospital, Bill agreed to use the nicotine patch and hasn't smoked since. As we sat on the deck this morning, he talked about how surprised he was that it worked so well. I told him that I needed a patch! We talked about how addiction has such a hold, driving you to indulge in what hurts you, seeming to control you.
Afterwards, I came upstairs t check my email and looked at the above photos, acknowledging how much damage our choices have brought. Then, I sat to read my Bible... and was reminded, once again, that God is aware of me. Here is part of the scheduled portion. I just love it when God drops a Word right when I'm primed to listen.
2 Corinthians 6:12-20 abridged , New American Standard from Bible Gateway.
12 All things are lawful for me, but not all things are profitable. All things are lawful for me, but I will not be mastered by anything. 13 Food is for the stomach and the stomach is for food, but God will do away with both of them. Yet the body is not for immorality, but for the Lord, and the Lord is for the body. .... 19 Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and that you are not your own? 20 For you have been bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body.
I know. These are well-known verses in the weight loss/get in shape world. I recite them to myself often, but...interesting that they turned up today as I was wishing that I had not let food master me had, instead, done what I needed to do to get my body as healthy and as fit as possible.
I'm hearing the melody of that new song. :) A song singing of liberty, of not being mastered by food, of remembering to whom I belong. And those words have just reminded me of this song:
And that's the way it goes,
P.S. My WL group was cancelled for today, so the first week is next week. I'm counting it as a reprieve! I'm still up from my last weigh-in.